I’m back! I took a little break from the blog for a while. I haven’t felt inspired to write anything in the last few weeks. The reason is I feel a little frustrated. I’m frustrated because God called me to “write for His purposes” over ten years ago, and I’ve been on this journey for a while now, but I’m still waiting for my big break. I’m still waiting for that email or phone call from a publisher saying they want to publish my work.
I attended a writers’ conference in Spartanburg, SC a couple of weeks ago, and it fueled my frustration. When I sat down to pitch a few ideas to a publisher, the older white gentleman automatically pigeonholed my work into “Urban” and “African-American” markets. I write about Christianity and walking with Jesus for all Christians. I grew up in the suburbs of Montgomery County, MD. I don’t know anything about urban life. I worked with at-risk youth in Washington, DC for a season, but that doesn’t qualify me to speak on urban life.
However, I have had some great things happen too. My little boy turned five years old this week, and I can’t believe it! He’s such a special kid. He’s overcome so many obstacles. I was in a major car accident when I was 6 weeks pregnant with him. I had an emergency C-section during his birth because of complications. He lost his daddy at 2 years old. He saw his mommy in the grips of grief. He was diagnosed autistic, but he’s made great strides. He is highly intelligent. He taught himself his letters, numbers and how to read. He is sensitive and compassionate. He loves preaching Bible stories. He’s musically gifted and can name any instrument by its sound. He listens to the Juilliard String Quartet. He is an amazing kid, and I know the sky is the limit for him. It does not yet appear what he will be in Christ, but I know he’s going to be amazing. I thank God every day for the privilege of being his mommy.
Anyway, I know God is doing a work in me in this season. He shows me every day that He can restore me and bless me more in my latter days than in the days before. I have faith that God will complete the vision that He gave me years ago about writing for His purposes. I’m just trying to endure and get through the hurdles and do my part so God can do His. Please keep me in prayer.
I hope you had a wonderful Resurrection Sunday, and look forward to some more frequent posts!