Widowhood

Matthew 5:45b (NRSV) “for he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the righteous and on the unrighteous.”

When my husband was first diagnosed with Epilepsy in 2012, never in a million years did I think he would die from complications of a seizure. I thought the seizures would just be something we had to live with. The doctors concluded that my husband developed Epilepsy due to a traumatic brain injury he sustained after being hit by a drunk driver as a teenager. After the first two seizures, we went into crisis mode because our son was only 1-year old at the time and we didn’t know how we would move forward caring for each other and the baby with this condition. When the third seizure happened several months later, we were in place where we thought we could manage the disease. He died during the fourth seizure in 2013.

I’m still finding my way through the dark and navigating this new life as a widow. I don’t like it. I lost my best friend and the person who I thought I’d spend the rest of my life with. I gave birth to our beautiful daughter without him. However, as a woman of faith, I am surrendering myself to the Holy Spirit and allowing God to redeem this situation. I’m trying to learn the lessons and allow God to use my brokenness for His purpose. I’m determined to press on to see what the end will be. I want to make it over too. I want to fulfill my life’s purpose. I want to hear “Well done.” So, I’m pressing on. I have two beautiful babies and I know that there still are good things in store for us!

If you want to read about my life with my husband in more detail, please click the link below. “I’m Singing This Song to You” is my love song to Gabe and my letter to my children about my life with their father. It contains many testimonies of what God did for us during our brief time together. I hope it blesses you.

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