It has been a very busy few months. Things are very busy at the church and things are equally busy at home. My husband started a new job and is getting acclimated to his new responsibilities and little K is just growing and growing! It’s amazing how fast children grow up. It feels like yesterday I was posting a video of him first walking. Now, he’s running through the house, going up and down the stairs and trying to say his ABCs. It’s amazing!
G is doing well in his health. He hasn’t had a seizure in a little over three months. We are excited about that! However, I have to admit. It’s been an uphill battle. Since the seizures, my and G’s faith has been tested. Yes, we still believe God. We still love the Lord and we believe and trust in His Word, but we’ve been wrestling with doubt and fear. We were so excited about the things that God had spoken into our lives and the manifestation of some of those things (i.e., our marriage, home and baby) that we didn’t realize that we had to prepare ourselves spiritually for the test and trials that would soon come. I guess I could say we lived as baby Christians with dreams of pie in the sky. We didn’t think that we’d face a test like this. We thought that we could receive the blessings of God without receiving those things that God uses to grow us. I know what you’re thinking, “Who knows what kind of test they will face?” Exactly! But, we never thought we’d be struggling with a health issue such as this. G is a young man and he has an amazing testimony about how God brought him back from the brink of death after being hit by a drunk driver. We never thought that his health would become our main concern and the cause of our stress and worry.
John 16:20–33 (NRSV), “I have said this to you, so that in me you may have peace. In the world you face persecution. But take courage; I have conquered the world!”
However, even though the last few months have been extremely stressful and challenging, the Lord is teaching me how to trust Him and be completely and utterly dependent on Him. Every day, He is teaching me that I need to keep my eyes stayed on Him. Through all of this, I am learning that God is not a man that He should lie, nor the son of man that He should repent. I am learning every day that God will do all of the things that He spoke into our lives. I now know by experience that His promises don’t make me exempt from trials and tribulations, but He will be there to strengthen me and give me the grace I need to make it through each day. It’s not an easy walk, but there is no place I’d rather be than with my Lord. As the song says, if Jesus goes with me, I’ll go—anywhere. If that means through the fire, I’ll go. If that means through the flood, I’ll go. However, His promise is stated in Isaiah 43:2, “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you.”
I pray that this encourages you as it encourages me!